I've been feeling lost the last few days. Swimming in my thoughts. Stuck between my responsibilities and wanting to run free. Do you ever have times where you just want to disappear? Slowly slip away in the dark of night? I love my family, but my soul yearns for something unpredictable. I get lost in the mundane details of work, life, doctors, the uncertainties, waking up alone...dinner, chores. I can feel time slipping away like sand between my fingers and I begin to choke on my own reality. And to be honest, I feel trapped. I feel like a robot going through the motions. There would have been times where I would be scared to share this, but I know I'm not alone. Life is fucking hard. It doesn't mean I love my family any less.It doesn't mean I'm not a good person I'm just struggling to fit into the mold of this life that I've created. I'm also struggling with how exactly to quench my need to run wild. And to clarify, this is not how I always feel. I'm very grateful for my life and my family. Feelings are fluid, everything is always moving and changing. This is how I feel in this brief moment in time. Do you ever feel like this? What do you do when you feel the weight of life pinning you down? Just run away with me , just for a while...take my hand lets go..
